decisive moment

By now, at the limbo part, 

between the worst which already passed and the best that will still come, 

I just keep going on.

Surmounting, step by step, arriving where I want.

 

my life without me

No, it's not about the movie, despite having enjoyed it... It's about life, the real one. Mine.

Everything I've planned has become of others. On the side, at the time when I'm not there anymore.

It's just strange... Being a beholder of my old dreams which are finally coming true. However, too late for me.

Out of complaints, regrets or even sad unpleasant griefs, I can say, proud, loud and clear: so much the better!

Before, only possibilities; now, detachment.
 
Things happens when they should. It's not by chance the way they do... All in good time.

Otherwise, I'm pretty sure that everything it would be different. That is to say no changes. And, in the end, that's not what I've wanted.

All told: Away, I'm better. New aims! 

bye!

The end of the reign

Après tout le scénario de crise qu'on a vu ici, aujourd'hui, dans les élections, il n'y a que trois choix pour le Québec... / After all crisis scenario we have seen here, today, in elections, there are only three options for Quebec...  

(puis, OUI: dans ce cas-là, toute ressemblance avec le slogan n'est pas purement fortuite! / and, YES: in that case, any resemblance with the slogan may not be purely coincidental!)

Debout / Stand up - Québec Solidaire

À nous de choisir /The choice is ours - Parti Québécois

C'est assez, faut que ça change / Enough, vote for change - Coalition Avenir Québec

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Comme d'habitude, je suis (et voterais) un peu plus à gauche... / As usual, I'm (and would vote) a little more to the left.

La fin justifie les moyens. / It is the end that justifies the means. 

Faque, au revoir Charest! / So, bye bye Charest!

independent means

In fact, I’d rather refer myself with it than using the word ‘possessions’ for what I‘m writing about... I’ve already written something similar before, at a resembling period of my life. However, now it is for real.

Or the first time, I’m finally inclined to set me free easily of many things which have left me connected to this place. Thus, more than be strongly attached to things which I have acquired during these last years, I’m now ready to move on, without anything that haven’t allowed  me to do that before…

As far as I’m concerned, everything I have don’t represent exactly who I am, but who I was when I bought that. My life have changed. Although I still like my furniture and all my stuff, I can't keep it with me. Now, I feel myself wanting things which are uncertain, while gives me some hope of future opportunities.

Finally I believe I’m becoming prepared! Bye, I’m selecting what is really useful to belong me, and what is worth to be sold or left behind. Overall, I’m sure it is the best way to reach what I want, to go softer for my dreams.

point of forking

One day, some really important decisions must be made. I know it is a hard process. However it is necessary so as to reach your goals as intended. There will be losses, of course. Many things to leave behind... Everyone has his own route to go through, though.

Right now, on the bifurcation, I’m just fearing about the choice to be made... If I will hit the jackpot. I hope so…

gaining my ends

How far can I reach while running more than seven kilometres and riding a bike for one hour every day?

Sometimes, during the exercises, I think about that: where am I going? To my dreams, once I can imagine me slimmer.

It’s a paradox, but my aim is 'less'. .. fatness, fewer kilos than in my early working out days. As a result of so effort, getting the better of it, obtaining more strengthened muscles, vigour and robustiousness.

When health is the main issue, less is more - both wellness and life quality. In this case, weight and self-esteem are inversely proportional.

I’m sure I’m in the right way: making me thin, besides turning me more physically attractive (ready to love again).

finally dead - who believes?

It was said today by Obama in his public televised speech at this dawn (in Brazil). However, as Thomas, the Apostle, I'll believe it only when I see it - pictures of the corpse in this case.

With a delay of 10 years to find him after the 11th September 2001 attacks, in addition of two wars begun using the excuse of being in name of the peace (ALSO! - because  pacifist aim was not the main reason since there is much petroil in many strategic places, of course!)… All this shit of hunt for Osama Bin Laden resulted in:

- 2.996 deaths (including the 19 hijackers and 2977 victims) in Twin Towers fall;

more...

- 919.967 murders in both Afghanistan and Iraq since their occupations in 2001 and 2003, respectively;

Obviously, these last facts haven’t been free of costs. By the way, the amount already paid until now by USA for army expenses have been something around US$ 1.188.263.000.000 - nunbers said by Chris Douglas-Roberts, a NBA basketball player, while was complaining about USA citizens celebrations of Osama's demise.

I suppose that Al Qaeda support money for any “terrorist” attack (as it is common called by USA and their allies, but clearly not the North American offensives…) haven’t reach so high peaks. Furthermore, their deadliest power is not so effective, then.

Lastly, and with no doubt, I can say that Osama is a myth. During a decade he left scot-free as a thorn in USA and their allies’ side. I got to believe that indeed he simply doesn't exist... that he was a caracther created as a 'Santa Claus' of the evil. Weighed against this the fact he is a martyr for many Islamic peoples. He is a kind of hero who fought until his last breath against the enemy.

Thus, I explain the inverted commas used above on TERRORIST word. After all, this is just a point of view. Not a mere, though. Unfortunately, our media uses yankee lens, focused against other objectives opposite to them. Nevertheless, they oddly threw the Al Qaeda leader body into the sea - saying that it was done to respect the Muslim traditions! - Since when they have started to do it? From now?

Alternatively, Obama is kinder and more tender than Bush (Further, now he has not only this merit but a quite good argument to improve his popularity and try a re-election). Albeit the present United States President is attending right now the stratum more extreme and conservative of their population… On the contrary of Osama, who has a similar name, while was representing the same kind of people that follow, respect and still believe in him.

So, it is exactly when the dangerous is more fatal: what are they going to do as a retaliation? More than anyone (Saddam included!), Bin Laden is even more perilous dead than alive. Let’s wait to see his afterlife influence… I sincerely hope to watch it only on television.

'becoming a princess' school

People tend not to regard (or pretend they don't know) that there is a informal and not disclosed princesses' industry - evidenced recently as a consequence of the wedding of the year: the Prince William's. Similarly to the misses one, which transforms simple girls in sculptural ladies ready to win any beauty contest.

This is not to say that to became a real princess it is essentially necessary being physically perfect. At the same time that million of little girls dream to marry handsome men, other just want to have a comfort life beside a rich husband. Rather better, if he could be special, as a prince for example.

In contrast to this fact, another kind of women have studied on the top of working to succeed in their lives independently of who they are going to live with. Actually, every one knows what is the best to get a lucky strike. Or rather: what is ‘to score a hit’ in order to guarantee a good future… becoming a professional, getting married, or have children (not to say ‘heirs’…).

Then, it is not a mystery that there are lots of cunning climber lasses, crazy and excited to reach their (clever) goal. Frequenting strategic places, meeting certain type of people, being in contact with who can offer good possibilities, they are focussed in their objectives, taking all necessary measures.

Only in my friendships group I know at least two cases. Some of the knower Brazilian examples are Xuxa, Luciana Gimenez, Adriana Galisteu… or who forgot how they became famous? Lately, the Kate Middleton’s path is up. Even with all moral doubts about her, she runs the current show - by hook or by crook. 

It is impressing that usually those behaviour and way are not only supported but also taught by parents, relatives and friends of these gals. Moreover, sensationalistic media upholds it intensively since it sales very well celebrities news. Once it is approved, they have learned since they were children how to act, which are the necessaries to become a princess, a famous' wife, or a son’s well-known-name mother.

Romantic and chimerical men should be heedful about that, to avoid it. After all, it's easy to make mistakes... Beauty is not in the face; beauty is a light in the heart (honest, while difficult to discern). In fact, after done, it’s no use crying over spilt milk.

side b bride  

Manners, traditions, disposition to go into a “fairy tale” life (or, for me a 'freak show' reality - considering paparazzi, invasion of privacy, hypocrisy etc.), those are some of the essential elements to became part of royalty.

I really don’t know if I would be happy without my freedom, with which I can say or do what I want (or which is necessary to be said/done by me). I’m against fake smiles, well-behaved wake of the hand, among other things, for instance.

I prefer somewhat as Kate Moss’ more informal (and junkie) behaviour. By the way, she is also getting married this year. I admit I prefer going to her wedding celebration than to the Catherine’s (new Kate's name from now) - that occurred today morning. I'm sure about that, as far as I’m concerned I'm a underground person.

wellness feelings

It’s quite good when can be seen the workout effects. As a result of frequent visits to gym, little (but significant) changes have been noted on my body.

Further, some alternative attitudes are important to turn it possible faster. Going upstairs, having less soft drinks, walking more… Thus, is clear that not only physical exercises are necessary.

Behavioural modifications are essential. So, I’m naturally avoiding the idea of eating much chocolate on Sunday Easter, or by all holiday. However, stirring the body allow me to take ice cream blameless and my pop corn appetence irresistible.    

Goals - I'm satisfied with mine (even being hard to be gotten).

making me thin

I’m stubborn.

My aim is loose more than 10kg. It is not a impossible goal since I'm working out hard.

One hour of located gym, and another of running in addition of 90 minutes on a bicycle, riding it quickly. Is it enough? I hope so…

In about three months I wish being ready for another summer, as I’ve been since I was born.

I’m conscious that nowadays is more difficult to slim than when I was a teenager... despite, I’ve never been fat. So, it’s clear the difficulties of getting it.

Nevertheless, I’m focused.

aiming so far

Bad news… I received a bomb a couple years ago, which has changed my way, my routine. Not my objectives, though - fortunately.

I believe that nothing happens at random. Everything has a reason to be. Nevertheless, I haven’t found that yet.

I’ve felt lost, homeless - although I have my place besides knowing where I’m going to: keep moving on to, finally, move out, going for my dream.

About one year ago, I never thought it would be possible. It’s incredible how destiny works… Nowadays I have asked myself why I haven’t done it before!

I’m prepared to face all challenges related, setting my future.

gut feeling

I’m trying not to think about it and not to be evident that I’m nervous. The little butterflies inside me (flying in my stomach) don’t leave me sleep, or eat, nor grow my nails!

Changes are wide steps, difficult to be taken - important, though. Now is time to risk. From now, it’s impossible to come back (and this is NOT the aim!)

Take it easy! Go ahead. No fear.

an old home life versus a new one

I enjoy my life style as well as my household utensils. Every single thing I have bought until now represents I succeed. I’ve been investing in it since I moved to Rio.

Sincerely, I’m confused because I’m quite cleaved with it. Nevertheless, I know I’m getting everything again soon, in another place. Furthermore, probably, (much more) things even better.

I’m pretty happy due to this possibility.

here I go again

Alone, in search of my happiness. With the past getting me enthusiastic, but worried about the future... This is my moment right now - of true, a challange (single and particular too).

It depends only on me, getting ahead in life. So, let's go! - no fear, alive and kicking, to achieve my goals. 

Branches or bridges… I break them both!

vereda

Ninguém disse que seria fácil. Nunca. Nem eu acredito muito naquilo que vem de graça, sem esforço.

Prefiro conquistar o que possuo, seja o que e como for. Não nego, no entanto, que um pouquinho de sorte é sempre bom. Ajuda.

Convicta, sigo forte no propósito, passando pelas vírgulas, rumo a meu ponto final. Reticências agora... no aguardo de resultados, depois de alguns testes.

valores globais

Por que precisamos saber qual a cor do batom da Melina da novela Passione (Please Me - da Mac, campeão de ligações para o CAT da Globo nos últimos meses) enquanto pouco conhecemos a China - país que brevemente vai dominar o mundo? Por que nos abalamos com o caso do Bruno, ex-goleiro do Flamengo, e não nos importamos mais com o fato de a África estar sendo dizimada pela AIDS ?

A resposta está no foco dos nossos meios de comunicação. O que eles querem que saibamos? Justamente o que eles transmitem para a gente, deixando MUITO a desejar em qualidade e conteúdo, beneficiando marcas, produtos, mercados, fazendo tendências, direcionando o consumo, o rumo, o interesse e o comportamento da população.

Infelizmente na TV aberta são poucas as opções. E o que é veiculado, em quase nada atende a uma ampla demanda de conhecimentos gerais necessária - àquilo que REALMENTE importa ser noticiado. Daqui a pouco começa o Big Brother e, aí sim, as manchetes tupiniquins, durante três meses, serão somente os amassos e as intrigas da casa mais vigiada do Brasil. E o bicho pegando aqui fora...

A solução seria um suporte de outros veículos - internet, jornais, revistas especializadas, livros etc. No entanto, a maior arma de todas contra a ignorância é a vontade do povo em saber. Quando a gente quer, buscamos a informação. É lamentável que esse interesse não seja alimentado na escola e em casa. Só aí já vemos a dimensão do probrema, o quanto ele [e maior do que parece. É geral, global e interno. Onipresente, a mídia está mais poderosa do que nunca, acomodando as pessoas, desinformando o mundo.

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 out

Tanta coisa para a televisão mostrar e, ontem, a Globo transmite ao vivo a fuga dos bandidos, evitando assim, sua execução pela polícia. Até onde esse reality da vida real nos ajuda? Atrapalhou, no caso, inclusive.

Aliás, no quesito 'gafe', nada foi mais feio que as caixas deixadas em Ipanema anteontem, numa infeliz ação promocional do Domingão do Faustão - não autorizada pela Prefeitura. Na boa, no mínimo demissão e processo para os responsáveis por alardear pânico ao colocarem caixas vazias em praças em meio a uma guerra civil!

A Globo está por fora. Sem noção do perigo.

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cabeças pensantes

Adoro conversar com meus amigos mais politizados, da História - tête-à-tetê, ou ‘Pé com pé’, porque, assim, a mula ruge consciente, indignada, voltando-se para o que REALMENTE importa. Meus objetivos ficam bem claros, e a certeza de que não quero e não posso mais perder tempo com futilidades.

¡Gracias, Grazi Linda, pelo questionamento, boa prosa e cia siempre!

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longe do lugar-comum

Ainda no tema, a companheira citada acima está produzindo um evento bem no clima... Segunda-feira, dia 29/11, às 9h30, no Auditório do Centro de Filosofia e Ciências Humanas da UFRJ, no campus da Praia Vermelha, vai acontecer uma palestra com os meninos do programa Não Conta Lá em Casa, exibido pelo Multishow (às quartas-feiras, 22h30).

Na pauta, as viagens dos rapazes a destinos pouco convencionais como Irã, Iraque, Afeganistão, entre outros, mostradas nos programa. A boa: a troca, o debate sobre a proposta diferenciada oferecida, na contramão do que é oferecido hoje pela grande mídia, e a experiência única de terem conhecido pessoalmente esses lugares, sua realidade, e a visão de mundo com que voltam.

Eu sou fã, amiga e suspeita, mas fica o convite de um programa que vale a pena (ambos, na verdade) - oportunidade imperdível, entrada gratuita.

Inspirada... Lugar-comum - o meu, definitivamente, não é aqui.

missão quase impossível

Assisti a Tropa de Elite 2 ontem e, hoje, Dia de Finados, posso dizer que, entre mortos e feridos, prevaleceu o desejo de mudar de um (tal) Capitão Nascimento. É árdua mas não impossível sua missão. E não é só a morte que visa, mas melhoras para que elas não sejam mais necessárias.

Mega produção, roteiro bem amarradinho, dando continuidade à saga sanguinária, mas com um panorama mais brando e amplo, embora cruel tal como no primeiro filme. A trama saiu do micro pro macro, da favela pro Planalto e, com esse, acho que o Brasil bem que poderia concorrer a uma estatueta em Hollywood.

Ao lado de tantos outros heróis do cinema, destaque para esse que acabou se popularizando. E, na boa, Wagner Moura não perde em nada para os galãs norte americanos, tampouco nossas cenas de ação deixam a desejar para qualquer 24 Horas, Rambo etc.

José Padilha levou bastante a sério: Missão dada é missão cumprida. Gostei muito do que vi. Parabéns.

Agora, no que se refere a Brasília, quem vai ter que incorporar o bravo personagem, ser durona e ver mesmo quem vai pedir pra sair é a Dilma. O cenário e os outros "novos" inimigos são os mesmos - a vida imita a arte... Ou quase isso. Cabeças vão rolar!

Boa sorte para nossa nova ‘Caveira’, guerrilheira, sobrevivente de torturas, treinada por Olívio e Lula, velhos de Guerra. Sua tarefa em exterminar bandidos, solucionar problemas e eliminar o mal não vai ser fácil. Vide Super Obama, que tá penando para se garantir no topo, de onde já despencou com sua popularidade e os índices de emprego - mas isso já é OUTRO assunto... tema pra um novo post.

ou não me chamo...

Para onde está indo?
- Em busca dos sonhos.

O que impede?
- Certas burocracias.

Elas são intransponíveis?
- Não. Vou superá-las.

Quando?
- Pra já!

Qual seu nome?
Vavá Linda Jones.

salto

Quando estamos preparados? Tenho para mim que alcançarei meu objetivo quando sonhar em inglês. Espero não estar longe desse ideal – não pelo idioma em si, mas por atingir uma meta. Poderia ser holandês, francês... depende aonde se quer chegar.

Certa vez minha professora de italiano disse que se sentiu REALMEMTE uma cidadã italiana (ou uma brasileira morando na Itália – que seja...) quando passou a sonhar na língua deles. Foi mais forte que ela.

Comigo é assim, tomou conta. O salto é grande, a vontade nos eleva. Quero concretizar um sonho, estar nas nuvens. Estou estudando para isso, MUITO, sério, como nunca antes. Que seja como tiver que ser!