true-lies agenda

It is said, here in Brazil, that the year begins after the carnival… Well, it used to be true. Nowadays, for the major part of population another period starts later… only when the BBB finish , what changes its  programming. As a consequence, every evening is going to be different for them from now. Since the end of this reality, for each one a new program is awaited.

The present doubtful 'real life' is driving me crazy since I simply can’t believe on nobody else anymore! So, I would like to can say that it all this is a big lie. However, unfortunately, it is not… It is our true.

Further:

I...

- should not be here;

- would be married if I had come back one more step behind;

- am not well-liked there for who is main important.

a past story as begun as not finished

Engaged with one of the most popular guys of the city, the also successful professional woman is quite satisfied. They compound a beautiful pair, envied for most part of single people, besides the couples… Inseparable, they are seen everywhere. This solemn-name family goes to cultural programming together.

Their children are not only so polite but also equally happy. Esteeming to each other is the main ingredient for their sweet united lives. All dinning are special, cooked with love. The sex is really fantastic due to the past experience of both. They are perfect lovers since they were introduced at Lancheria eight year ago.

A white two-floors house in the south area of the city, with big dogs running on the green garden, is often visited by closer friends and colleagues - famous people inclusively - owing to their jobs. On weekends, is a haunt of barbecues with pocket show of local singers or poets. Table of chess, card games, pool, ping pong and 'totó', as well as pinball entertain their “old” friends while the youngers play in the swimmingpool (or videogame  - against some adult guys). In the juke box, classic records are played.

Even the age difference between them - included the stepson, the twins and the little girl still inside her belly, was not enough to separate these good partners. Nor the 21 years which in the beginning were the double of his age (exactly when she was at  prime of her life) are a problem. It haven't ever been...indeed. This lack is necessary to complete themselves, making them entire, as only one.

Old school (or 'old is cool') always has been an important lesson there, in their home… minds, hearts, souls. The believe in them is with her, regardless of anything happened earlier, during or is coming in the future, soon. 

I'm sure that she would be happy living (exactly right now) this ‘their‘ story… (perfectly imperfect due to its no expectations, matters not told, a mystery made) I guess that could be possible, as the another world they  used to believe, even being separated.

It is just a look back (or forward?) of mine, reminding me dreams that haven't come true - but could, though.

bad wolf block(ed)

Today, on the April Fools Day everything may be said, believed and forgotten. Thus, a little care is pretty good...

Oppotunity makes thieves - inclusively, I recently knew (the other face of) one, and it wasn't a special occasion for it. There are many wolves (in sheep’s skin clothing) around, just waiting for a chance to get the jump on an innocent sheep (= someone ill-advised).

more than words

“Melhor que o livro em si, são as suas dedicatórias” - Yes, I hit the nail on the head! Wow... Actually, I already knew that… ('cause I think the same way!) So...

On the first page, something like that:

Ik ben eindelijk iemand tegen gekomen voor wie dat boek echt logisch is. Vertel me later hoe de reis was! Liefs.

It’s just my (best) way to say ‘Thank you’, and the rest... well, is everything that I have taken with me, and is still here… (I always knew that I will feel something special) This kind of sentiment is difficult to change inside us, besides, it just happens - "unintentionally" and with "no" reason and intention to be bad, or harmful for anybody!

About the book (and not the affection), it is true: for the first time in my life I gave it for the correct person. Nevertheless, it was (better: IS!) more than a simple (another "Budhist") gift…

I believe that both this philosophy and the proposed inquiry of values come in a good occasion, aswell the challenge of being zen(ner) is wonderful - and necessary, inclusively! A reflection about our lives, how we are conducting it by our acts and thoughts is vital! Moreover, it also helps us to be a better person.

It was just a friendly kindness, but could be (even) more… maybe a Thai massage, with whole feminine vanity and everything else! At any rate, I hope it works! After all, I’m constant.

At the right time, I will write about this incredible trip. Await!

*(So do I… written words - in the old school way of course ;)

é isso, companheiros

Não há como descrever a sensação de estar entre fiéis amigos, companheiros de longa data, parcerias memoráveis de momentos que não voltam mais.

Assim estive em abril deste ano, quando voltei a Porto Alegre em visita rápida a trabalho. Reencontrei então (ex) colegas de faculdade, pessoas com quem dividi uma fase singular de minha vida, meu conhecimento, meus sonhos.

Bom ver que, mesmo com o tempo que passou (e a distância que nos afastou), continuamos os mesmo, em versões melhoradas, mais sofisticadas. Em 2010 completa dez anos que nos conhecemos, que iniciamos um período determinante de nossas vidas, que ingressamos de cabeça no universo do saber, a academia.

Eram tantas as ideologias, os conceitos, a imaturidade misturada à vontade de acertar, a garra, a energia e a ousadia... Hoje os anos pesam mais e as preocupações sobre o futuro incomodam como nunca antes. Estamos nós velhos antes dos 30? Esses dias fiz esse questionamento em meio a uma discussão sobre (erradas) formas de escrever, citando a linguagem da internet/computador, e causei.

Não paramos para pensar nisso, mas sentimos na pele a responsabilidade de já ter deixado algumas marcas, lembranças, e, principalmente, não demorar mais para fazer o que mais tiver que ser feito porque o descer da areia na ampulheta não favorece a 'juventude'. Hoje estou com a mesma idade daqueles (não tão) jovens que me iniciaram politicamente, digamos assim.

O Acampamento da Juventude do Fórum Social Mundial serviu de laboratório para as práticas de um Outro Mundo Possível, e assim o tornamos realidade naqueles poucos, mas infinitos, dias no Parque da Harmonia, acampados, militando, dando o nosso melhor àquilo que acreditávamos. Com essa experiência vejo como é importante e essencial que se viva por inteiro cada momento.

Fico por vezes nos imaginando mais velhos mesmo, daqui a algumas décadas, quem sabe, como há pouco completou Woodstock 40 anos já! O tempo voa... e daqui a pouco seremos nós como nossos pais, como aqueles coroas old school que víamos e admirávamos seu estilo de vida. Vão respeitar nosso conhecimento? O que será que as novas gerações vem a trazer, a tentar transgredir?

Seja o que for, que fique claro que ainda temos muito a fazer. Sim. As buscas agora são outras - estabilidade, reconhecimento, segurança etc, mas o que importa ainda é a troca. Tão bom poder estar entre iguais, com os convivas, e sentir-nos 'em casa', falando a mesma língua, exteriorizando idéias similares de visão de mundo, compartilhando mesmos anseios e vontades.

Seja em Porto Alegre ou São Paulo, socializar não tem preço! É de graça... E é isso, companheiros.