mon monde

Comme cadeau, volontiers ♥

Cependant, si je pouvais, je lui donnerais le monde entier...

Bonne fête à celui qui a volé mon cœur: mon mari, mon petit prince, mon gentil tyran.

Je t'aime, mon amour! Fort, fort.

be mine

I found it, hung on the handrail of a bar, missing. Perfect for me! At that moment and then.

About a year and half ago, I don't know how, when or where, I lost it. Unfortunately.
 

Brown, warm, versatile, basic... I confess that, many times, it was hard to manage without it.
 

One fine day (yesterday, to be more accurate), I went to a second hand shop, looking for something similar to wear under the coat. I even told my husband about that... Surprisingly, there was one! I-d-e-n-t-i-c-a-l. 

What a goog luck! Amazing. So far... So good! 

Well, it's said "If you love something set it free. If it comes back to you, it's yours. If it doesn't, it never was". Thus, more than never, I pretty think that it REALLY belongs to me. 

a homelife process

I used to be happy when living in an overfull house. Each one of my furniture meant a bit of my effort to make my place a comfortable one to live in.

Of course I know that a empty ambient is better to energy flows… to acquire others. However, it is necessary to give space for that!

It’s time to get in touch with things I always used to dream about… Thus, I’m trying to get rid of things to put me in a way of doing it.

One by one, I’m selling my history, everything I’ve conquered by now… Today I gave the first step for my dreams.

I sincerely would like not to have to come back, to carry back many things with me. I want to have some different from now.

I wish fill my new life, my home, with happiness, replete of useful things which will achieve me, bring me the materialization of my plans. Not material ones, though.

independent means

In fact, I’d rather refer myself with it than using the word ‘possessions’ for what I‘m writing about... I’ve already written something similar before, at a resembling period of my life. However, now it is for real.

Or the first time, I’m finally inclined to set me free easily of many things which have left me connected to this place. Thus, more than be strongly attached to things which I have acquired during these last years, I’m now ready to move on, without anything that haven’t allowed  me to do that before…

As far as I’m concerned, everything I have don’t represent exactly who I am, but who I was when I bought that. My life have changed. Although I still like my furniture and all my stuff, I can't keep it with me. Now, I feel myself wanting things which are uncertain, while gives me some hope of future opportunities.

Finally I believe I’m becoming prepared! Bye, I’m selecting what is really useful to belong me, and what is worth to be sold or left behind. Overall, I’m sure it is the best way to reach what I want, to go softer for my dreams.

my best friend's wedding

He would give me on my 30th year birthday a wedding ring, he would be my best partner for every event I could go, he would plan our abroad vacation travel with our children for the end of the year… he could be everything ‘best’ in the world… however, he is not my husband because I simply don’t love him (not as "MY" man). We can’t ordering our feelings to choose somebody to like him. It happens independently of our will.

Randiness is something we don’t control. It is impossible to ask ourselves “please, want him (or her)!” - further: right now! It doesn’t work like that… It simply “plim” - as I’m used to say… Moreover, this ‘prince’ guy, who I’m going to want with me will appear complete for me soon, without “nevertheless(es)” - in the same way he’ll be more than my best friend… as he is for his wife - the fortunate woman that chose him (or he chose her… whatever! They are perfect for each other).

I’m full of satisfaction with myself since I’m not jealous, or have no envy about her. I’m not this kind of possessive friend that doesn’t want his happiness, as a result of my negative decision to became involved. On the contrary, I’ve supported his new relationships, his affairs and now, his marriage. I want all the best for them. After all, I like her too. I was there when he met her and I hoped further for them…

It is something I’m awaiting that he (and also she) wish for me as well… knowing someone special to pass the rest of our lives, constitute a family, live a beautiful love long-lasting story, besides keep them company at meetings, travels... any kind of couple's programming.

the movie

While I was putting the title of this post, I remembered the movie of the same name… Julia Roberts, a successful almost 30-years journalist, was invited for this 3-days happening wedding, occasion when her best friend is going to become a married man. At this moment she realized she loves him, only owing to the sensation of loss. Human being is a [fuc*!] selfish animal.

At the end, even with all tries, he decided for Cameron Diaz (NOT BAD…) and they lived happily ever after.

disaffection

It is something in which I’m working so hard while I’m packing my suitcases and set in order my stuffs putting it in boxes. 

“Eeny Meeny Miny Moe” - I have to hold everything on my hands, one by one, and wonder myself if it will be useful when I come back later… Chose if I’ll donate, give to a friend, box it or even take it with me there.

What is really worth to keep with me, even aloof?  - stagnant, useless. I admit I’d prefer to turn anything more useful for someone else, than let it aside for a long time.

However, I should practice more my unconcern about some mere objects that will only keep energy completely immovable, once incased. I’m trying…

Hence I swear I’m going to heaven as a result of my unpredicted goodness. I’m changing… moving (on). It is pretty good… turns anyone in a better person.