get off to a good start

After some hard time, with so many changes (for good - fortunately!), I just want to restart my life in the best way... Healthy, surrounded by friends, with love and a job.

I was never someone very ambitious, wanting to be rich, famous or was always seeking what is not made for me, what I can't or should not have... My worries were other ones. I've always looked for well-being.

Now, my time has just arrived, and I think I have the right to, and I am not asking too much (!) : happiness, satisfaction, peace of mind, faith, goodness and a world of new and great possibilities, with less injustice, violence and illness. 

Each one writes his own history. I've just start a new chapter... a new life even. Maybe that one it is going to the best one. We never know... I hope write for that, funny and delight words. 

My 2015 resolution is being happy - totally possible! Thank God. Amen.

     

pisando em ossos

Enquanto alguns festejam o Halloween, eu aproveito a data de Finados justamente para enterrar meus mortos, exorcizar fantasmas do passado a fim de poder, enfim, celebrar a vida - que segue, em frente!

Receio de estar fazendo a coisa certa? Sempre se tem... Mas, como dizem que, junto a mudanças, tem-se perdas (para que venham novidades, que haja recomeços), faz-se necessário arriscar. É o preço a ser pago por melhorias.

Ultrapassado o momento "limbo", triste e sofrido, uma nova partida.

Que seja dada logo essa largada! 

letters

Even in my teen age, when didn't exist email yet, I think I'd never waited so anxiously for receiving correspondences.

New life, other requests... but, in fact, too much burocracy to restart officialy!

Waiting... My current wor(l)d in Canada.

crawling

With no fear, restarting...

Creativity, animation, fresh ideas, expertise, (foreign) knowhow: hey ho, let's go!

I can fall down seven times, but I will stand up eight. 

 

C.V.

Writing a summary of my experiences... 

What a mess: many things to list!

Good ones, indeed (so much the better!).

Despite the restart, I'm pro.

vida que segue...

Aniversário  do Rio! 
(saudade dele e dos meus...)

Alegrias e decepções da vida. 
Medo, dúvida, dor...

Amor, fé, esperança. Outro recomeço.

Inspiração pra escrever. Desabafo...

changes

In fact, it doesn't happen fast, over night.

A personal transformation is a shifting, occurs day by day. Improvements, ok, they can come more easily.

Sometimes, to start a revolution, it's just necessary move, move on.

The most difficult is decide it, though. To quit and begin again.

Recommence demands brawn and cogency.

I'm happy I did that. Fortunately.

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Getting one year older, I realize I'm calmer. 

That's good, makes me chuffed. Not lazy, by no means.

 

to the future!

I'm not stuck in old memories, bygone loves.

I don't want back in my life failed stuff of yore. Overcome, I turn the page, clear the stage.

Alternatively, I prefer to move on, try something refreshing, find new people...

A start from scratch is thriving, full of different possibilities!

While others look for their past, receding, I go forward. 

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I avoid anchors(men - not saying sailors or presenters), I'm all for balloons (ones).

everything is possible

Nothing could be stronger than our dreams.

We must attempt. It's never too late to start life over, differently, in a good  way.

Hey ho, let's go! I believe, and help you.

(what about you?!)

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Any effort, every little step is very important to reach anything we want. However, it will always have temptations on the way - (bad) past things that are supposed to remain there... away.

How unbeatalbe will us let them be as to disturb and hinder us to achieve it? Will them trip us, deviating us completely from our goals?

We can NOT forget we are not alone. People can help, strengthen together our foible.  

We must be patients, married. Love is crucial, reinforce. 

Everything counts. Nevertheless, it's always a personal decision. 

It's all about choices, (good)will(power).

new life

Some old memories must be left behind in order to carry on.

We simply can't have a better tomorrow while don't stop thinking about yesterday.

So, today, I finally decided to release me, trying to make many of them remain only in the past.

No regrets, no ghosts, no lies anymore. From now, different moments, new records... A restart.

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Forgive/forget: 

ALMOST the same thing, having similar effect on me by now.

Hey ho, let's go!

different strokes for different folks

Everytime I feel their sarcastic smile, criticizing me because my inexperience in walking on ice or snow, I remember of them, wiping-out in waves of the rough Ipanema sea...

I slid, I fall, I laugh, I get up and restart again (nice and slowly). Hilarious!

I'ts all about practice... Everything is new now, but I'm getting used to.

Wait for that. Soon!

ma vie en rose

I'm sure we can chose the color of our lives - both the saddest and the most happy one. It s up to us!

So, after special changes, for instance, I decided not to have my kitchen utensils orange anymore. By the way, nothing against Holland… on the contrary! However, I have already come a long way.

From now, I'll take it easy and restart seeing this (current) world through (my) child's eyes. Thus, for me everything is all right again - even if it said it is not all a bed of roses.

Actually, living in (a) Rosemont (réal), finally I guess it may be - at least for my new stuff, besides the romantic language I've learned and the opportunity to be happy.

Here, I definitively feel satisfied.

start it over

New year, new life.

Sometimes seems necessary dive into the past to make possible a future free of ghosts. Revisit old drama and some questionings to start anew, practically from the scratch... empty mind, without disturbing feelings. No doubts.

It's like clean out the closet: you should vacate shelves to put new things on it. When I say that, it doesn’t mean fill in with problems, though. Actually, leave soul fresh, clean, to receive good vibrations, new ideas and inspiration.

Why not a new love? A disengaged heart allow that happens.

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extraordinary

Still about love... there's nothing like having sex with whom you like!

Casual, just by convenience or desire happens a lot and it’s also pretty good, but when your heart beats stronger, making you bat your eyes… for sure it’s much better! It’s different because you’re making love!

A special moment, unique, rare nowadays – when what matters is quantity rather than quality. More and more, people haven't giving themselves up in relationships... including sex (exactly in this moment that is the most intimate of all).

To conclude, maybe I'm the last romantic.

realidade desvairada

Mais que um 'Rio de possibilidades', isso é São Paulo. Fato.

Atraio-me por tamanha oportunidade, ao passo que também temo tal grandeza. Em Sampa as coisas acontecem, e de tudo se encontra em algum lugar da metrópole. Há iniciativas e ação. É um oceano essa realidade profunda, mas fria.

O que me assusta é justamente a solidão em meio a tantas ofertas. O medo de recomeçar do zero, sem a proximidade do mar, as facilidades e certa informalidade do Rio - em janeiro, fevereiro e março (o ano inteiro).

Amigos tenho, a cidade me aproxima toda vez que a visito. E a cultuta fervilha por toda a parte. Tudo acontece ao mesmo tempo agora! É a lei: tem quem procure. Coisa boa. E assim sempre foi... a exemplo da Semana de Arte Moderna, de 22.

Conferi hoje uma exposição sobre Guilherme de Almeida, personalidade emblemática desse movimento modernista e também da Revolução Constitucionalista de 1932. E o endereço não poderia ser mais charmoso: a tombada Casa das Rosas, à Avenida Paulista, coração da paulicéia.

Vendo aqueles livros, poesias e fotos de artistas vanguardistas e ousados, senti a cidade tão mais aprazível, como jamais antes a tinha enxergado. Parece que só então me caiu a ficha da importância e relevância histórica daquele lugar.

Teatro, cinema, literatura, comércio... de tudo um pouco (ou muito) de cultura e entretenimento, de lazer e trabalho, se apresenta nessa vida louca que Sampa oferece. É uma realidade singular que só quem (con)vive aqui entende e consegue encarar mais facilmente.

Será que tenho estômago? Só com um grande amor, casinha montada, trabalho certo, dinheiro no bolso e ídas constantes ao Rio para arejar do ar poluído... aí qualquer um encara essa realidade desvairada!