the truth, the best choice

Always, even if it hurts... 

It's better crying due to reality than pretend everything is fine. By the way: 

Yes, one wil be constantly supporting the other in a couple - more than anybody else! 

No, who really loves won't be the one making the partner laugh with lies (just to be cooool...) 

Consciously, no one has any doubt about that.

dreaming does not costs anything

That's why I throw myself into, living it acutely.

Nonetheless, in real life, our safe harbor has a price.

649 - that's all I want (and we need) by now. Actually, only half of it!

oftentimes, a pitiful result

"...if you want to test a man's character, 
give him power."

Abraham Lincoln

It's true! Then, yes, you'll really know someone.

Fortunately, I feel myself pround of my behaviour about. With the others, aftermath hasn't been SOOOO nice, though.

just waiting...

Between lies and love,
deception, surrender, regret,
improvement, relapses, prosperity,
doubts, choices, dreams and hope.
Songs, books, movies and records.
French, English and Portuguese.
Home and libraries.
Past, present and future.
Feelings and reality.
Family and friends,
me and him.

cinq étoiles

La prison fictive de Unité 9 semble un hôtel de luxe! Et je ne mets pas en compairison avec Carandiru ou même pas avec la prison de Sağmalcılar, en Turquie (de l'«Express de minuit»)...

Équipée d'appareils électroménagers en acier inoxydable, de dernier cri, leur cuisine est meilleure que chez nous, par exemple! Ses vastes cellules, propres et individuelles, ont plutôt l'air de chambres de condos du Plateau! Ou je me suis trempé d'émission, et ce que je vois n'est que la vie riche des protagonistes de Tu m'aimes, tu?. 

J'ai aucune doute que cela n'est pas la réalité de plusieurs contribuables qui payent pour ce privilège (service de VIP) à ceux qui ont commis un crime (ou plus) à la société. Donc, je pose la question: 

Si vraisemblable, à quel point c'est juste?

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vraisemblance

Trop rigide, la nouvelle “IPL'' de la série TV pénitentiaire, Nancy Prévost, jouée par Debbie Lynch-White, ressemble énormément (pas de jeux de mots!) à inoubliable matricule 728 du SPVM (Service de police de la ville de Montréal), Stéphanie Trudeau.

Comme dans la vrai vie, un personnage remarquable! Toutefois, pas pour son charisme, évidemment. Tous ceux qui ont vécu le «Printemps Érable» se souviendront!

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Malgré tout, je suis vraiment contente qu'on va revoir Marie Lamontagne et sa gang bientôt! Cette intrigue à couper le souffle poursuit l'année prochaine. ⋆⋆⋆⋆⋆

at home, anywhere...

Forget twitter, facebook or any other social media... 

My real and most loyal daily follower is my cat.

No matter what I do, my kitty is always there(!), moving behind me.

For many others, dogs. 

Unconditional love. True one ♥

I'm with the band

This is the Pamela Des Barres book's title. For me, the sentence means some kind of reaffirmation. A way to prove "I'm important" by being with others, living (in the shadows of) their lives.

As Miss Pamela, many other groupies become "famous", mainly in the 70s (see Cynthia Plaster Caster, "Bebe" Buell and "Sweet" Connie). However, in different levels, even nowadays there are lots of them! Everywhere.

Personally, I think they are all dependent women. Once they need the base of somebody else to be someone, I'm convinced they haven't enough worth. Not by themselves.

Superficial people, in my opinion. Even if important for band rock stars... to fuck with (may have a baby and finally give them a "carreer"). Status prostitutes, then. Without a doubt.

 
On the other hand, of course they are fun! Sex, drugs and rock n' roll - who doesn't enjoy it?! In this context (of showbusiness), everything is cool, magic. Nothing is real, though.  

Vocation is required; not truth... Well, it's a matter of choice, values. Although I've loved so much Almost Famous, I honestly don't believe in this fake glamour.

Likewise, I CAN'T trust them. Sorry, but I simply CAN'T stand who pretends to be something which is false. For their behaviour, vicarious embarrassment... 

Working seriously, I avoid this type of girls. Furthermore, I'd rather they disqulify our category. Am I being too hard? Who is in the trade knows... 

Vulgar, low, base. So trashy!

il sogno

(malgrado la realtà)

Però, un giorno, loro si incontrarono per via...

La Casa
Vinicius de Moraes, Sergio Bardotti e Sergio Endrigo 

Era una casa molto carina,
senza soffitto, senza cucina.
Non si poteva entrarci dentro
perché non c'era il pavimento.

Non si poteva andare a letto,
in quella casa non c'era il tetto.
Non si poteva fare pipì
perché non c'era vasino lì.

Ma era bella, bella davvero,
in Via dei Matti, numero zero.

urban contradictions

After watching City of God, City of Men, Last Stop 174, Elite Squad and Elite Squad 2 (yes, we have our sequel movies! - good ones, in bargain!), I'm not surprise that people become afraid to visit Rio. 

I understand. Even though it is warned (most part of them advise audience before starting), it's hard to believe: 

"Despite the many similarities to reality, 
this film is a work of fiction"

Come on, it was not my fault... What can we do? - not show them our best cinema?! (Call Capitão Nascimento?! - the 'hero') How simply ignore, omiting ourselves facing general violence presented throught the screen to the world?

Scenes are shocking. In the same way, it's the reality - especially in favelas. Indeed. If it terrifies even carioca citizens, who are used to, imagine foreigners... mainly if from peaceful and tranquil places(!).

I just say the truth. In particular, giving my point of view, passing my own experience: I lived there for eight years and I was NEVER robbed, for example. Well, I'm trying a honey moon there... Nevertheless, the trauma is huge!   

I confess that it is NOT (at all) a safe place. It's necessary pay attention (after all: "malandro é malandro, mané é mané!"). However, I was very happy in Rio, I owned. Likewise, most part of who is from there. I'm sure!

Although all its problems, Rio is still a marvelous city. Unique, phenomenal! We can't deny... Who was there (at least) once, will never forget!

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What I miss at most? The beach (culture).


 

camping at home

All children enjoy playing that. At these days, I have a little less patience, I admit… mainly when in fact it is happening in my real life. As in its 'adult's' beginning, I’m living right now an atypical situation which requires me unfastening.

Although I’m not completely satisfied, I know that it is just a mere period which will pass very fast. Then, I will be able to laugh a lot due to that (soon!), while seeing stars in another context, exactly when my ‘little girl’ dreams come true.

*All in all, being grown ups sucks... It's too much responsability, many changes and problems to face that sometimes I wish to live an eternal childhood! (safe at my place, of course)

when everything goes astray

A man has been robbed for a long time and, one day, decided to put some kind of artifice to catch the thief, as a rat-trap (or a man-trap?). Precisely: the baddie took the bait. He fell into the trap prepared there, waiting for the exact moment of the robbery.

The most astonishing thing of this story (surprisingly) is the fact that the 'official crime' was the robber's death, not his attempt to steal goods. The police put all the blame on the house's owner. For them, it was not a self-defence issue. Actually, it doesn’t matter anymore...

Unfortunately, nowadays, the law is not on the citizens' side indeed - even when protecting themselves… trying to have some security which government “simply” doesn’t give us. This is our (as stupid as nonsense) current Brazilian reality.

I can't stand too much unfairness. Living here seems a pitfall.

After that, I just want say: bye! (or rather: fuc* you, inequitable guys!).

More info here.

health of body and mind

Something wrong happens and a rash inside me outcrops.

I'd prefer that it would be differently. I admit I can't stand deal with that any longer. Legs, butt, arms and neck... please, leave my whole body free of itch.

On the contrary of the speech of Coca Cola advertisement said, it's been difficult to believe that good people are the majority. Unfortunately, the reality which has happened day by day shows its other face: unfair, cruel - hard to believe in hope.

 

I wonder if I am going to endure all those consequences... or rather: until when?

drudge

How much worth the work we do?

As far as I think about how much I would deserve for do what I do (well), I almost want to give up of everything I've built until now. So, I've been wondering myself if I'm doing the right choices.

It's a difficult conclusion to get to. Disrespect... a loss of credit. Over and over, who sweats more during the labour doesn't have time to earn money - much less reputation!

Unfortunately, we live in a both hard and unfair reality for workhorses. It's been a heavy journey each day to maintain rich as well as relaxed who, in contrast, leads a good life - a few roguish fellas getting the jump on "dogsbodies". 

I definitively can’t stand it anymore!

home sweet resistence

It’s unbelievable (as inadmissible!) how much cost to sustain a house in Rio. Lately I’ve read news about the abusive prices to maintain a dignified carioca life.

Properties here is more expensive than Paris! This, without include other spent such as feed, health, transport, communication…

Trends have increased sharply since 2006, reaching the peak at 380% compared with the past values. However, after knowing that Brazil is going to host the World Cup in 2014 and also the Olympic Games later, in 2016, it started to be really quite unfair.

Considering most part of local population salaries which remained constant or plateaued, the fact is that the economy is going exclusively along with the touristic numbers. Carioca’s reality is diverse of this bed of roses that is believed we live. But ok, I understand that is envied our way of life, even being poorer than other’s worldwise patterns... Blame of overvalued beachs and other postcard views.

Although it said that can open the window and admire Christ, the redeemer, is priceless…(!), this is a private treasure, just for a few  privileged rich people, who can pay (much) for seeing this beautiful known landscape so close. Thus, I'm miserably blessed (also for keeping the wolf from the door)!

love it or leave it

31st March, 1964 (almost 1st April...) - could be some kind of mistake, or a lie of Fools Day. However, wasn’t! It was one of the most sad days in the Brazil’s History. A military coup d’état was established. That date completed 47 years few days ago. So, it is a perfect chance to talk about it!

As a (violent) joke, militaries defended the idea that they were helping the democracy through the army force. The president at that moment, João Goulart (called 'Jango'), was overthrown. students, actors, journalists etc many were against, rebelling. Communist people were arrested, tortured or killed. Many bodies have never been found.

I’ve been deeply touched about that! Furthermore, I’m so glad that SBT (even broken) is presenting those mournful chapters through ‘Amor e Revolução’, their new soap opera which has begun this week. Heavy (and also bloody), it shows the truth about the period that changed the course of country‘s future. Unfortunately, our population at that time was not strong enough, since was not united, to making the revolution here. Thus, it has resulted in our current reality.

It's pretty good: quite nice casting, excellent sound track, intelligent text as well as interesting edition, in addition of being an essential story to be known by everybody - mainly the younger, who didn’t have any contact with it. Apart from teaching in classes, I reckon that is very important this kind of representation to inform the present audience. I’m not going to loose even one day of it!

On top of that, I was satisfied to hear real testimonies, somewhat similar to the end of Manoel Carlos’ work. Fellows have been telling us their 'below stairs' stories in the dictatorship (while I simply can’t stand, always crying affected as consequence - I'm sure that I lived at that time in the past, whit another name of course, as usual then).

doubtless

Yesterday I was between 'Divã', the guerrilla and bar. I chose revolution and then I made the tavern table my social divan. Forgive me Lília Cabral! My situation at these days asks something more intense. I inclusively could say that was always like that… I'm not going to deny that I've been inclined towards left since I was born, worried about the world - believing in another one possible.

they wormed their way

Pitiful, everything goes bad here.

I advice: my extreme opinion probably will shock you. So, it’s up to you whether continuing to read or not.

I was astonished to watch all the news about the fake policeman discovered recently in Rio. However, not owing to his lie, but the complete surprise of population about that. Let’s aim some disturbs usually occurred:

- Instead being the ‘law-guys’, giving us all the necessary security, many policeman don’t act as a good role. Considering that, everyday, they ask citizens some tips to liberate the bad conducers, weed smokers, or whoever…are doing something wrong(!), it is clear that they are not making things well, dealing wrongly with this power received.     

- No one would dispute that politicians are not doing well their jobs. As long as they were working hard for our welfare, the reality of Brazil would be another - better for everyone, of course! They robber public money, over incoming as much as they could everything possible, in addition of accepting tips too etc. 
 
Now, answer me: who are the real fake men of good?

- Carlos da Cruz Sampaio Junior, that wanted to be a cop even not being approved to it. This poor guy not only simulated false positions at the Police but also forged documents which proofed his calling. Whereas there, he conduce illegally some of their battalion’s missions against bandits. It is a perfect case that a common person who wants to be a hero (or someone similar to it!) even not through right means

or…

- our legal men accordingly Brazilian rules (politicians or policeman), elected by us or approved in a specific test to became a civil servant - that gave them power to have both duty and responsibility to be in the office they are,   above all suspicion. Even so, them attitudes don’t are suitable with their roles in our society. In other words: they are not good guys, or rather: the main individuals that MUST carry on the laws, “simply” don’t.

It is interesting (not to say an absurd!) that even if facing this horrible reality which we live here, only few people complain, is upset or indignant with the winding means this kind of thing often happen here! Surreal.

I’m not here justifying the lies of the fake cop, just saying that there are many worst things forgotten while a smaller mistake stamps all chief news section of every single TV channel. Hey, someone remembers that we have voted in these (ir)responsible fellows who let those ones to do whatever thy want to, as being allowed to gain an advantage over everything?  

It seems somewhat as fiction... Tropa de Elite - the movie. While one wants to be Capitão Nascimento, others insist in wormed ways (read ‘the our Mafia’ ones - “Milícia’s”) to get the jump on. From my point of view, the punishment for this bad conduct to whom was trusted this serious charge in society, should be more severe than for who tried do alternatively their jobs, even being a unlawful.       

flying far away

I am walking on clouds - literally.

I’m very satisfied with my new acquisition: another pair of Mizuno’s (Running) tennis-shoes. I saying ‘another’ because, after my first one (about seven year ago - until now, like new!), I will always buy it when necessary.

Me… who has already run after some guys (in a wrong way, of course!) and has skkiped from robbers, flee from danger, running risks all the time. I need this effective tool to go ahead. Furthermore, I’m trying to make good my loss... the weight put.  

Its damping system is "simply" wonderful! Due to this technology, it goes far - So do I (with it!). Far better: without feeling any impact. Using Mizuno, seems we can fly! (no, I’m not been payed for publishing it… I’m just a contented consumer). Since it is good, it’s going to be declared here.

The best advertising is by word of mouth! - Inclusively, the mule roars about it (in portuguese: a mula ruge…!).

Wherever can a mere shoes carry us?

While I’m running, my thought is not only around Vondel Park, but through all those streets with that typical tortuous constructions like dollhouses. So, I breath slowly, glad with the icy breeze entering into my nose.

Then, I open my eyes and realize that (unfortunately) I’m not there. Immediately, I look straight ahead at the others with some fear, taking care not to be robbed. Thus, I miss not being there.

As a consequence of this hard reality which we have been living in big cities of Brazil, sometimes we simply forget how unfair is having to avoid using something more expensive owing to the violence. That is cruel!         

a hard day's night

Crisis... of seven years or the 'almost thirty' one?

Actually, doesn’t matter. Nothing was acquired until now, even working like a dog during this period.

All ghosts both of sadness and frustration, due to not being in a fair chance to succeed even in a long term... This horror movie has been our life documentary.

¡Viva la revolución posible!

take it or leave it

I can’t take it anymore! I’m going… I take full responsibility by my choices. I will take a crack at it.

Stressed?

Take a break. Further: take a breath and take a good look… How are you? Do you feel happy? Are you satisfied? Think about that.

What is more important for you at this moment? - keep some security living exactly as you are or try something new - which you always want to?

Take risks. After all, life is short. We don’t know how many opportunities will be given to go for our dreams… Take advantage of the offers.

Take my word for it: living is better than dreaming, so, turn them into a reality.
  
Take care. Don’t waste your time!

Take not only a walk, but a trip. Take your seat to fly away... Take all steps necessary for it! Don’t give up of your goals.

Take it easy. Don’t rush!. It might take quite a while, but with the first step taken, everything flows… take your time to move on.

Take my tip. Take over your life! Nobody can do it for you - not even saying what you can or not do.

Take your chance! It’s your time. Enjoy it right NOW!

zead is dead, baby

Zead is dead...

Dammit, I'm in "trouble": my dream is over!
(It just came true...)

From now, doesn't matter anymore what happened until this exact moment... it is past. Everything changes as of now...

How will be the future?

Read about the 'scenes of the next chapters' here and you will know.

dreaming

O que os sonhos revelam sobre a realidade? Seriam eles um sinal do que vai ocorrer, um espelho do que está acontecendo, ou uma válvula de escape para pensamentos confusos, perdidos em meio ao turbilhão de ideias e informações que nossa mente processa todos os dias, toda a hora.

Poderiam ser eles um elo com quem amamos? Fariam eles certo tipo de conexão entre nós? Pergunto isso porque sonhei com uma pessoa importante e, ao comentar com ela, aquilo que tinha acontecido de alguma forma é real. Interessante, fiquei positivamente surpresa.

Será que quando sonhamos com alguém, pode esse alguém também ter sonhado conosco? Sempre penso nisso, nessa ligação. Gostaria que assim fosse. Recentemente, enfim, sonhei que estava vivendo o que há muito tempo sonho acordada...